Most people I meet are curious to know more about my personal journey to becoming and being a professional psychic. When I first started doing it full time, I would cringe at having to answer questions regarding my “job”. Usually I would resort to all the most extraordinary and creative reframes you can imagine to avoid saying exactly what I do. When evasion and generalization failed to suffice, I would just say, “I read cards.” Oh you mean you read greeting cards for a living? No not exactly. Of course the sexes would have completely different reactions. Women are usually so excited they immediately tell me all their psychic stories and depending on how much time I have to indulge, I would welcome the engagement. Men too often would stare at me as if I’d said I was visiting them from another dimension indicating I was undoubtedly off my rocker. A curious blend of disbelief, nervousness and suppressed laughter would ignite their stare. My husband, if he was with me, would turn to stone as the man sidelined a glance his way. We’ve had our challenges but to my husband’s credit, he has never expressed skepticism regarding my work to me or anyone else. But then again he knows better than anyone else who I am.
Aside from details I’ve felt comfortable splashing all over the world wide web, I have a few stories in my journey that have not made it into such a public forum. Funny, weird stories.
Once I understood at twelve years that I possessed an ability that no one else was admitting to, I went rather silent about it for a couple of years on the advice of my Capricorn mother. That was until I became best friends with Debbie at fourteen (a Gemini who felt completely at odds with her conventional family values). One day she said to me, “You know you are really weird. Do you read people’s minds?” I figured she was on to me by then so I said, “Yeah.” She didn’t know whether to be more shocked by the fact that I knew and admitted it or by the fact that I could. Of course she was alarmed immediately by the notion that I could read her mind. Not that anything in her mind was all that terrible, although I had thought some of her thoughts towards me had been uncharitable at times. After a bit however, her eyes gleamed with the exciting possibilities before her. “You can read people’s minds? Oh my God!! Like Blair’s for instance? Please tell me you can read Blair’s mind!” The object of her present crush. I laughed hysterically imagining the look on her face when I told her what Blair was thinking about most of the time. That was my first profound inkling that there are definitely things better left to the imagination of the smitten one.
I played along though and in no time we were conjuring up psychic games. I used to play psychic games with my mother too. With Debbie however they tended to be rather typical of two boy-crazy teenage girls. I enjoyed them mostly because they were honing my skill and giving me a place to explore them openly without judgement. Debbie thought she had won the jackpot. We used to lay under the trees on lazy, warm summer afternoons while I tuned into “where the boys are”, what they were doing and when we could expect them to be in the park in order to place ourselves there at just the right time to “coincidentally” run into them. It worked like a charm.
It hasn’t always been fun and games however. There have been times when I uncovered things I’d rather I didn’t. Many years when I wished I could go through life not seeing what is invisible to most people. When I was twenty one I was working for a man to whom I was quite fond. I happened to glance at him one day and knew he was dying. I wasn’t sure if he knew it which further dismayed me. It was discomforting especially since I was particularly close to his daughter who was just a few years younger than me. He did die about six months later of liver cancer. It seemed once the doors opened there was no shutting them again. That’s why I always caution people to think carefully before they step into the morass of psychic development. There are no returns.
I wish you a wonderful Full Moon today! The surge of feelings might feel a little overwhelming. All that you’ve been holding in threatens to break the dam of suppression and spill out. The very structure of your life may be irrevocably changed by it’s force. In this Full Moon in Capricorn day we will see how the urge for emotional authenticity (Cancer Sun) pulls against the terrain of the deep psyche (Pluto) and soul origins (Moon). Expect much inner revelation, so keep your dreaming eyes open. If you are good at dream recall, tonight’s dreams will be worth recording, painting, or writing about in your journals.
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“Adolescents experience the whole spectrum of spiritual experiences. However, what is unique to this age is that with the rise of sexual energy, many teenagers also experience more pranic activity. This may manifest in unusual physical symptoms similar to kundalini awakening, e.g. tremors, energy streaming, flashes of heat or cold. Along with this physical activity, perceptual changes may occur: brightening of colour vision, sharpness of visual perceptions, inner visions, inner sounds, increased sensitivity to touch. Psychokinetic phenomena happen most frequently in households where there is an adolescent. It is as if the potent energy that has not yet found direction in the teenager catalyzes movement in the furniture and objects of her house. These phenomena may lead to spiritual emergency if the young person does not have help in understanding what is going on and make use of the energy in his life.”
The Call of Spiritual Emergency by Emma Bragdon 1990
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